Le mois d'Aout 2016, j'ai fait 4 postes peut etre que je peux faire plus cette année.
Quatre ans après.
C'est vraiment incroyable dans le mauvais sens du therme ce qu'il se passe en cette année 2020.
Le Coronavirus a bien frappé. Cela a vraiment fait des dégâts.
Il y a quatres ans mes postes à cette periode etaient en anglais. Je suis pas d'humeur à ecrire en anglais. Et a cette periode de l'année m^me merde téléphonique. Je travaillais aussi pour une entreprise française. Et passais mes journée dans le train, en direction d'une autre ville.
That is funny this is what I told myself 4 years ago, during summer time ; "The thing I can say today is, be strong, believe in your project and be active. Do not expect, be a doer. To suceed." Maya.B.
In July 2016 I apparently learned about BLM, that is crazy that 4years later the I can breathe movement happen.
Can I do stuff that I will laugh about in 4years ?
Any ideas ? Ideas that do not require any money ?
Maybe a video on why I should love myself, just a reminder when I feel down. Hopefully there is no editing qualiities required.
But currently I forgot what I was about to say.
A blessed day with them even if my heart get grumpy when I am irritated. I love some cohesive moment.
Suite souvenir juillet 2017, ETE 2017
"Pourquoi je continue d'écrire tout les jours comme ça, sans objectifs ? Parce que j'aime bien. Et qui c'est quand j'imprimerais ces pages dans quelques années, je serais surement étonnée du blabla que j'aurais pu écrire. Peut importe, en ce moment je suis sur l'overblog et je trouve ça bien d'écrire des bouts de mes journées."
Je suis absolument d'accord avec ce que j'ai écris.
"Je manque beaucoup de sou en ce milieu de mois, parce que je suis spontanément partie à marseille avec un de mes amis. J'ai payé le billet je pense trois fois plus chère que sont prix initiale.Etant déterminée à avoir des bons moments avec mes proches, je récolte se ce que je sème. Et en défiant les obstacles je le paie chère. " Mdr ouais c'étais la crise sévère après mais je regrette pas. Je suis heureuse et reconnaissante de ce souvenir.
"And I want my items in my everyday life to represent what I like. Then I will se if my wall will be able to show who I am." I seriously agree with that, right now so I better get my T-shirt. With all the inspiration I respect.
"(But I prefer working alone and here is the thing, my home is always busy. This piss me oof, sometimes, it is a recent feeling, because I have notice that I never needed to be focus. Now I need it so bad, but I don't know how to afford it. IT the consequence is ignoring everyone, why am I that extreme in my way of behaving, man, because I am not use to, trouble.
As any other human being on this planet earth, I am afraid to fail. I was afraid to fail at 7years old. Then at 15 years old. Then at 18 years old. Then now at 25 years old. Already a quarter of century spent on this planet earth, and I am not impressed about myself. I am not impressed about who I am currently. I am not impressed. I am too limited for my liking. Every day I am dying a bit more and I am less and less impressed about myself.
Do you remember what I said 4 years ago ? I want to respect my presence on this planet earth. I don't want to be spectator but a doer.
So far I don't regret any of my life choice, and I thank God for always keeping me health and under safe shelter. This question remain, will I ever be proud of myself ?
Even I manage to reach by God grace, big project that I carry on my heart, such international citizen involvement, would I ever be like, "yes girl, well done. cheer up." I never feel that way, in my bowels.
I don't want to die dumb. Can I learn something new each day ? Even when I a mistaken, I happy to learn something new every day.
Other subject : Coily hair
Ce poste va dans tout les sens, je devrais aussi m'exprimer sur le Co-Wash, les activistes capillaire qui m'inspire. Inna Modja, Naptural 85.
The most hashtag use on instagram for coily hair :
If at any point I fail, I think it because I rely way too much on my self.
But the thing is I have notice this recipe, and before I display about that recipe, my Auntie, Uncle and 3 cousin not respecting the recipe, it is upsetting me way too much :
The important that we are not respecting in my family is all the moment that help for cohesion.
- The unique and first one : Family dinner, since I am born we have missed and since my first cousin was born, 20 years of family dinner. This mean 7 300 days with no family dinner. This is a challenge, not easy to overcome. (Everybody sitting, the four us, then the five of us, then the six of us at the same table. Yes we are currently six). This issue has been explicitly raised to Auntie, and Uncle.
I'm personally tired to be only creative human being trying to find a way on that subject. 7 300 days with no dinner, is 7300 with missed stories, anecdote. Each day you missing a story each day you missing a part of that person. Those moment are unique moment and have value and need to be cherished. Re-talking about that subject now, 4 years later makes me feel like my patient attitude was useless when I was a kid.
The important thing that I did not respect as a sister is sharing more stories.
- The thing is clashing with I am still today, when there is no progress there is nothing talk about. I was so insecure about my future. I know what I wanted but I knew society will not give it to me that easily. So what story to talk about. Plus the way I was upset about my parents, made that I was tired to explain myself to my sisters as well. Basically the elder in particular.
The important thing that we are respecting as cousins in order to have a choice in the society.
- The importance of your general culture
- The importance of being involved in something
- The importance of good grade at school